It seems like I've been one giant ball of nerves lately. I've got a lot going on in my personal life, and some of that stuff has literally driven me to my knees. My stomach has been a ball of knots, and I've been physically sick over some of the stuff. Through it all, I always had my nails. My nails have been my refuge, my safe place... and I have always had them to fall back on to calm my nerves and set me free from whatever is plaguing me.



Until now.

Not even doing my nails has helped make these feelings of creeping anxiety and borderline panic attacks go away. I don't like feeling this way at all, and I've searched myself and my feelings, and I've even prayed about it. (Yes, I am a Christian) But on Monday, something "broke" inside my chest. I don't know if this is a literal interpretation of a broken heart or what, but I had this overwhelming emotional moment where I couldn't move. Tears welled in my eyes, and I don't know why. I didn't open my mouth to speak for fear of full-out bawling. But I sat quietly for about 5 minutes, tears rolling down my cheeks. Then the moment was gone, and I was back to my ball of nerves. But even tho I was a giant ball of nerves, I still felt some ease. Like maybe, you know, everything was going to work out.

And you know what? It will. It always does. I have had trouble lately with letting things go and taking things as they are. If my hand is in something, and something could possibly change with it, I freak out. I like my stuff my way and that's it. But I've learned giving up that freak out, whether it be to God, the air, or simply just letting go, everything starts to fall into place.

Let's hope I can just keep remembering to do that. What are some of your favorite ways to de-stress? Do you have trouble letting go of things? How about looking at some pretty things? Check out the blogs below! This is by no means the only blogs I check out, but just a few...